It was just a dream

Imman: asa pa eh.. ehem... ehem.. music please...
forevermore
by side A slash imman santos

You will only be just a dream that i knew..
imagined that i would be right for you (and vice versa)...
back then i just can't compare you with
anything in this world..
you were all i need to be with forevermore...
I have always felt jittery and flustered when the name appears on my YM. I freeze up and my gaze can't seem to wander far from her when she's around. Suddenly, I felt like there was a huge void in my heart when I read that line as I was browsing through that gosh forsaken website. I wanted to cry but what was there to cry about? I wanted to be angry at myself for being too immature and laid back but I was only being myself at the time. I kept clicking and clicking, trying to use every ounce of my research skills to prove the line to be false. Alas, I was only fooling myself. I have no right to deny them their relationship... She was just this crush and I was just a stupid spectator of her loveliness. I don't own them nor their feelings... They seem to be happy together, look good together, and want to be together.. so... hay.. just accept the truth even if it hurts... I saw them as I was driving around running errands and I almost ran them over (i didnt mean that and i didnt even recognize it was them hehe) but again, my heart skipped a beat and I had that melancholic feeling again. Sigh... they say first love never dies... i wonder if the same goes for childhood crushes... Snap out of it imman! it was just a dream that you once knew! just a stupid dream like perfecting a math long test eyes closed... it was just a dream... and now I have awaken from that sweet slumber only to find myself dreaming again... arghhghghgh.. I should really change my password now...

hm.. I started with a song and i might as well end with one.. again.. music pleas

On and On

Stephen Bishop slash imman santos

Poor ol'imman

Sits alone in the moonlight

Saw someone kiss another someone

So he takes a ladder Steals the stars from the sky

Puts on sinatra and starts to cry

on and on..

he just keeps on trying

but he smiles when he feels like crying

on and on, on and on, on and on...

(ayoko na... after this it's all behind me now and I will
learn to live somehow.. ngek.. I feel another song coming pero wag na...)