It was just a dream

Imman: asa pa eh.. ehem... ehem.. music please...
forevermore
by side A slash imman santos

You will only be just a dream that i knew..
imagined that i would be right for you (and vice versa)...
back then i just can't compare you with
anything in this world..
you were all i need to be with forevermore...
I have always felt jittery and flustered when the name appears on my YM. I freeze up and my gaze can't seem to wander far from her when she's around. Suddenly, I felt like there was a huge void in my heart when I read that line as I was browsing through that gosh forsaken website. I wanted to cry but what was there to cry about? I wanted to be angry at myself for being too immature and laid back but I was only being myself at the time. I kept clicking and clicking, trying to use every ounce of my research skills to prove the line to be false. Alas, I was only fooling myself. I have no right to deny them their relationship... She was just this crush and I was just a stupid spectator of her loveliness. I don't own them nor their feelings... They seem to be happy together, look good together, and want to be together.. so... hay.. just accept the truth even if it hurts... I saw them as I was driving around running errands and I almost ran them over (i didnt mean that and i didnt even recognize it was them hehe) but again, my heart skipped a beat and I had that melancholic feeling again. Sigh... they say first love never dies... i wonder if the same goes for childhood crushes... Snap out of it imman! it was just a dream that you once knew! just a stupid dream like perfecting a math long test eyes closed... it was just a dream... and now I have awaken from that sweet slumber only to find myself dreaming again... arghhghghgh.. I should really change my password now...

hm.. I started with a song and i might as well end with one.. again.. music pleas

On and On

Stephen Bishop slash imman santos

Poor ol'imman

Sits alone in the moonlight

Saw someone kiss another someone

So he takes a ladder Steals the stars from the sky

Puts on sinatra and starts to cry

on and on..

he just keeps on trying

but he smiles when he feels like crying

on and on, on and on, on and on...

(ayoko na... after this it's all behind me now and I will
learn to live somehow.. ngek.. I feel another song coming pero wag na...)

what women are..

Gio:
MYTH
Long afterward, Oedipus, old and blinded, walked the
roads. He smelled a familiar smell. It was the
Sphinx. Oedipus said, " I want to ask one question.
Why didn't I recognize my mother?" "You gave the wrong answer,"
said the Sphinx. "But that was what made everything possible," said Oedipus. "No," she said. "When I asked, What walks on four legs in the morning, two at noon, and three in the evening, you answered, MAN. You didn't say anything about WOMAN." "When you say MAN," said Oedipus, "you include WOMEN too. EVERYONE knows that." She said, "THAT'S WHAT YOU THINK."

Imman: Hm.. ngayon na nga lng tayo magpopost.. oedipus pa! hehe.. so you're saying na naguguluhan ka na? ewan ko.. d ko magets sorry.. haha..

hm.. naalaala ko lng- a narration of an incident

Imman: My dad, on one of his one on one lectures that I would like to dub the father's knowledge passed on to imman speeches (I would rather call it speeches even though they are just two to five liners because I don't usually respond to his bits of wisdom): You can't please everybody son! It would just make you look like you have no convictions.. Tingnan mo si GMA... From here, things get blurry.. Well, the nice thing about this is that we know that it is true! This talk with my dad came after a long day at school (time and space gets wavy here as a flashback sequence gears up)... It was a friday, January 23, 2004- my sister's birthday. We had a situation/controversy in the COMELEC. As chairman, it was my duty to settle this ASAP because the elections were coming. A certain 3rd year chairman aspirant wants to run underqualified. As stipulated by the COMELEC code, this guy cant run; however, the COMELEC has the power, as again stated in the code by an Article (the last I think) crafted by the great chairman which I succeeded- Charles Yeung that the COMELEC can issue resolutions that can grant this 3rd year person the chance to run under probation. This is the first time I encountered such an important decision. Should I let this guy run knowing that he has not fulfilled 4 of the 5 requirements to run as chairman even though he is suited for the position? (shit! this is getting more complicated the more I try to remember!)

Well, the board was faced with this decision as more protests were coming. Loopholes in the COMELEC code and Sanggu-HS constitutions were surfacing. The party of this 3rd year guy threatened the council that they would retract their candidacy leaving the student body only one candidate per position. The elections were edging closely into the abyss of a failure of elections- a chairman's worst nightmare! The said party was conducting a not vote or vote abstain movement to make the elections fail! Everything came into a vote! Should the council jeopardize the integrity of the COMELEC Code by granting this exception or should we risk everything and continue the elections with only one party running?

The COMELEC voted; however, we too were divided. I wanted to make everyone happy... I

dont want to be the cause of pain- I cant vote.. I abdicated by voting power to my board- A tie!

Gosh! It really has to go through me huh? Well, by the power of the COMELEC moderator, Mr

Gabriel Mallillin- Uhm.. let's say sir had his way. He explained again why we should'nt let this

guy run.. I concurred. the end! We went home for the whole week I think at around 7 pm-

debating, hearing appeals, voting. Luckily, the elections went well. We did not have a failure of

elections. There was a new automation of the tabulation. We were heralded. Picture perfect!

Hay.. I would like to think so.. After writing this long entry, I still feel bad for that guy..

But, as my dad said, I cant please everybody. Somtimes I have to be firm in my decisions so as

not to act like a coward- lame, loser, uncertain, and no will (I would like to say I'm a coward but

I have more self-esteem than that!) All that hullabaloo wouldnt have been if I had been firm in

my decisions as a chairman. (Gosh, I should be a future CEO! I shouldnt be uncertain with my

moves!) Well it happened again- I broke a commitment with a friend whom I should have met

along katipunan but I didnt. When will I stop this series of indecision? This may seem

contradicting my entry on spontaneity but I believe that there should be a balance of both.

Sorry ervin- I shouldnt have made- injan!

In one of mr pagsi's speeches during 1st year..

if you want to.. [1-8-2, 2-1-2, 3-2-3 5-1-4] [3-1-4, 1-2-4, 4-1-4] [1-7-4, 2-2-2, 6-6-1],

lundagin mo baby!

Comfort Room

Imman: A "slow" and wise person once said to me, "I should live my life on the edge, be spontaneous!" after that "incident" that I kept feeling bad about. What can I do if I had always played it safe? Ever since I chucked that stone in the air, hitting a car windshield? Ever since I got my finger cut short by a bicycle? Ever since I got my feet stuck between the fork and the wheel of another bicycle? Or is it the time I got blasted by a firecracker? Or maybe it's because of the last time I cheated in an exam- during grade 2! All my life, I played safe (yeah right!) ever since I thought that sometimes the risks are too great when I felt bad after doing "crazy things". Sometimes my conscience compels me to live my life in a shell where there are no jolts and surprises. Where no crisis arises, my life goes along as it should... yeah.. it's all very nice, but not very good (thank you barry). Yup, I feel like I'm trapped in my own comfort room.. no, not the CR but my own comfort zone. I dont want to step out! Please, somebody! Break down the walls for me so I can live my life to the fullest! Sometimes princes need to be swept away by their princesses too...